It has been over a month since our sweet baby boy turned a year old, but today I wanted to share some of my thoughts about this milestone. We celebrated him during my social media holiday break, but it seems like it would be a mistake not to share a little about how I feel about my very last baby turning one and not really being a baby anymore!
Oh how has it been a year since we welcomed you into our family, sweet boy? Time is really a thief. Being our second baby, though, I already knew that and I like to think I have really savored this year with you and just enjoyed you being a baby.
You are the answer to so many prayers. Many tears were shed and my heart was broken what felt like a thousand times during our wait for you. Yet, it is now so crystal clear that all that waiting was because the stars had to align perfectly to bring us you. You have brought me so much joy and are such the perfect addition to our family.
Even after waiting and praying for you for months, my first reaction when I found out you were on the way was slight panic. You see, your sister was a hard baby and I was so excited to do it all over again while also simultaneously utterly terrified to do the baby phase again. But you – you are the absolute best baby.
You are sweet, love to snuggle, and so easy going. You smile and laugh all of the time. You almost never fuss or even cry. You sleep well, you eat well, and you just kind of go with the flow. Truly – the best baby.
Your sister and I were well in a routine of being just us girls during the week before you were born and I was so nervous about what life would look like once we brought you into our family. I worried that I wouldn’t have the time for both of you or I wouldn’t have the time for you as a baby that I had for her since she was our first baby. This makes me laugh now, because you fit right in just perfectly. It is almost like there was a hole in our perfect little routine that I didn’t even realize was there. You were the perfect addition to our family from the beginning.
Because you are my second baby and likely my last, I have been all kinds of emotional about celebrating your first birthday. It is such an important milestone but I also so desperately want you to stay small enough to carry in my arms forever. Right now you have just started to hit that separation anxiety phase but it doesn’t bother me at all that you want me near. I feel so honored that the sight of me, your mama, is all it takes to make you happy and content.
Oh, and your thumb. I think you sucking your thumb is the cutest thing ever.
The year has gone by in the blink of an eye and I really couldn’t imagine our life without you. You are so loved by so many people, especially your big sister. I hope that you always stay close. She is proud of her role and is fiercely protective of you. I even tear up sometimes when she firmly tells other children to please not eat any peanuts around you. You have such an ally in her and, as an only child, this was one of my wildest dreams for most of life.
I am so excited to see all that you learn and accomplish in the years to come. But if I could make one request it would be to take your time and stay little for as long as you can.
We love you so much, sweet Connor!
In case you missed it: To Madeline on her First Birthday. | Connor’s Birth Story | And then there were four
